it has been my routine every morning since my son started school here to drop him to school before going work. i usually sit with him on the waiting area while we wait for the bell to ring. while waiting, i usually encouraged him to play with the other kids. i will also tell him that i should just drop him off the gate and he should be independent. today after 2 weeks, when we are nearing the gate of his school, he told me that its time for me to go. he said he can go on his own. i asked him if he was sure, he nodded and kissed me goodbye. i watched him and felt proud and sad at the same time.

andi eigenmann is pregnant

andi eigenmann is pregnant. jaclyn jose, her mother confirmed it on tv patrol.  jaclyn said the father was andi's first boyfriend and he left her when he learned that andi is pregnant.  news says that off cam, jaclyn confirmed that albie casino is the real father.

both are very young and at their promising years.  i really think andi is one of the prettiest face in showbiz nowadays.  she could have done and choose better.

years ago, this would just struck me as another juicy showbiz news. but truly, motherhood will change how the way you look at things.  this really got me to thinking on how will i raise my kids so that they will make the right choices when the time comes. as parents, we can only do so much but as a mother, i wish i can do everything for them.

i know that its still too early for me to worry, but if it was me, i think i would constantly remind them of the consequences of their actions.  i would even scare them how life is going to be difficult.  but more importantly i would make sure that they would feel how much i love them.

if only i could be that kind of mom!  because right now, i cant even get them to sleep early.

on becoming a mother....

on becoming a mother....

the moment i saw the 2 lines in the pregnancy test, it really felt different. i still remember it vividly...

i was the only one at home then. my hubby was at the office and i wasnt feeling well that day so i decided to take the day off...he was the one who insisted that i take the test. actually i had a hunch that maybe i am pregnant because im starting to hate the smell of my favorite perfume. but i just dont want to give my hubby so much hope because he always gets dissapointed whenever my period arrives. and to think were only 3 months married then. he really wants us to have a baby. on my side, its que suera suera, if i will get pregnant then its ok if not then maybe my feeling that im not sure if im ready maybe right and maybe my big boss up there also thinks so.

so everything was all ok, my emotions were all intact and then... there were 2 lines.. wait, what did the instructions says... 2 lines its positive, if the 2nd line is blurry repeat the test the next day, otherwise its negative... its positive... happy? excited? nervous? scared? am i ready? are we ready? can we handle this? yes im married and have a job but... this is a very big thing? this is actually another person's life that im going to mess up with if ever... i never thought i can feel so much emotions in that instant...

and then i did what i always do whenever theres a strong emotion inside me.. i talked to him up there, my big boss... and he calmed me.... and now i know what i really do feel... an overwhelmingly feeling of happiness... im going to be a mother! a parent! yes im not yet ready, but who is? i cant wait to tell my hubby...